玩完了

今天，打开facebook看见他写i love you,
真的觉得很开心，很开心
还天真以为可以挽回，
怎知道
同时他也换了他的relationship status
看到那，
泪流了，心也碎了
你说爱我，就因为要补偿我吗？
那我真的不要


本来以为六，日可以和你一起度过
怎知道
你星期6要和你那“朋友”过生日
还说要给什么surprise
我的生日有不见你那么紧张
是啦！ 是啦！
那女的大完
最厉害就是她
我都比不上她
她的生日就是生日，
我的就不是



我干嘛还那么生气
再过几天，
你都不是我的男朋友了！
不要再骗我了！
我不是只有3岁！

19/6 happy day

dear,
evendo today dont have much privacy time with you,
but i'm really happy..
i love the feeling when u hugging me..
i know i will miss it...
1 more week to go..
after that, no chance le
but we are still friend..
i know it will be something wrong in between us..
but.........friend

dear,
i hope the time can stop at that moment..
holding ur hand forever
love you 


sign off

2 more weeks

dear,

i know we're not gonna last long..
but 2 weeks is already enough for me..
is not that i dont love you..
but just...tired..
in these four days..
i cried everyday...i'm tired..

2 more weeks till my birthday dear..
you promised me you will give me surprise de worrr..
remember ma??
im still waitting for it..
hahah^^

i stop crying le NG I-FERN!!!!
reallyyyyy!!! =)
but just today la..
tmr dont know yet   xp
thanks for accompany me for so longggg..
really..
i dont know how to bao da you!!
hahahaaaa..
if u got anything..must call meeee..
joey stay so far...u call her oso no useee..
u call me...i'll reach ur house in 5 mins!!!
swear!!
thanks!!!



yeahhh..
saturday can meet dear leeee^^
hope he can come laaaa =)
finally can see him after so long...
happpyy :)

sign off

between you & me

1 month before


"stupid dear, dont think roo much, i wont let anyone replace you in my heart. never ^^ except u broke my heart la" (happi)

"all i know is, currently i only love you, it will never change..stick with you dear" (smiling)
___________________________________________________________________________


" dear, why you dont want come back next week??"

" come back le give you do anything you want with me dear, any wishes also can." (happy)

.........................................................................................................................................................


after 1 month

" give me more time dear"

" for?"

"get use to my life here"

________________________________________________________________________________

"duno why i become less minat with sms =.= like very..ma huan...too long didnt sms everyday d gua..( tears drop)

"then dont sms too often la."

"you say i ignore you." (crying)

" i wont say it again..dont worry."

"maybe i use to be alone too much"  (heart break)






dear, i'm a human..
i have feelings..
i can feel it..

你敢不敢这样疼你女朋友??

你说 、你爱她 ？

你会不会把她介绍给你的父母 、哪怕她不是他们喜欢的类型？
你会不会为她放下你的少爷脾气、在外顶天立地，对她就温柔的'没底气?
你会不会在争吵后主动道歉、哪怕她错，你也不忍心责怪？
你会不会打心底认为、她是天底下最好的女孩，一旦拥有、别无所求？
你会不会在她生病时领她去打针，然后看她害怕的憋红的眼睛紧紧的抓着她的手抱着她？
你会不会'不小心'就记得、她爱吃的她不爱吃的、她对什么过敏她害怕什么虫子?
你会不会带她去看新上映的电影、在她手里塞上一个冰激凌、然后她笑你笑，她哭你哄？
你会不会在她赖床后匆匆上课的早晨、准备好早餐，看她像小猫一样乖乖吃掉？
你会不会在她嘴硬时、看穿她其实需要保护需要温暖的内心，给她最好的疼爱？
你会不会每天都像昨天一样爱她、每天都比昨天更爱她？



你说、你爱她？
你能不能记住你们的每一个纪念日、记住今天是在一起的第几天？
你能不能坚持为她养成一个习惯、从第一天为她做、就做到每一天都为她做？
你能不能在她无理取闹胡思乱想的时候、给她足够的安全感，不会对她不耐烦？
你能不能在很冷很冷的冬天、也坚持送她回去，抱抱她看她上楼再离开？
你能不能时刻都牵着她的手、无论是过马路逛公园，或是在朋友师长面前？
你能不能细心的记住她说的话、留意她喜欢的东西、保管她送你的礼物？
你能不能不欺骗她、不冷落她、不忽略她？
你能不能为她24小时开机、在她做噩梦的晚上有人可以哄她睡觉？
你能不能不只把她当花瓶、有心事会对她说、决定也会找她商量？
你能不能不再大手大脚、只为了攒下钱带她去吃好吃的、去想去的地方？
你能不能真诚的说'我错了'、'我想你'、'我爱你'.




dear,
everything i wrote up there is not important,
i just need this,
你能不能不欺骗她、不冷落她、不忽略她？

To him

Dear:

I know i've been very "complicated" to you sometimes.
but i really don't mean it..
I guess you get what i mean..
but i'm still the same..
i never change at all..
still love you like last time..
i know i quite emo last few days..
but believe me..i DONT WANT break up.. i DONT WANT this to happen
unless you dont love me anymore..
no matter how u treat me, cold or hot
i'll still accept it..
why?
coz u're my bf..
dont tell me coz i'm not interested in that topic..so u dont bother to tell me..
i just want to know everything about you,
share everything with you,
always by your side..
care about u..
why??
coz i love u..
i'm not just ur friend..
i'm ur gf..
i duno wat is gf mean to you..
but for me,
bf is like the most important person in my life, ( except family, that 2 ferns)
i need him always..
he is also my life ...
3 months before,
i promised you,
i'll wait until you come back de..
and i did it!!
really miss you like hell in that 3 months..
now,
you come back le..
happy !!!! =DD



wooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i'm very very very fine nowwww
i wont cry anymore..
i'll give you time..
but when u're ready, please tell me k?
i'm always here..
REMEMBER
give me a space in ur heart..

=DD



next week school starts,
prepare yourself to get in school life..
it's not like form5 anymore..
a lots of work..
so, we got no much time to meet each other..
remember,
my phone will never off..
anything can just call me


remember this lyrics below?

That you are not alone

For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay
You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart
You are not alone


love you always

need you now

i'm very happy tat you're back..
but at the same time, i'm not reli happy also..
less messages, less contact, less topic...
3 days le,
i really miss u..
ur voice, ur hug, ur kiss, ur everything..
but till now,
i didn't get any phone call from you..
i know laaa, call me also no use maa..
nothing to talk..call for what leh...
the week before you come back,
i happy like hell..even eat also can smile..
i already planned everything,
but seems like everything is just NOTHING
but nvm..
as i said before..
you have ur own choice..and also freedom
i'll never complain too much..

just want to say..

I LOVE YOU
&
I MISS YOU

( i know you wont read my blog)

哭

昨晚真的哭了好久好久，
心情真的很不好，
希望这感觉可以快点消失吧

驾车时，
听着歌都会想起他，
他很久都不回我，
真的那么忙吗，
在想他到底在做什么
下车后，
突然有只手拉着我
这时我看到一辆车与我差身而过
谢谢那aunty吧
不然，
我也更新不了这blog了

好累，
每天都只是等
除了等，还是等
我们几时才能像以前那样呢？

为什么你背着我爱别人

为什么你背着我爱别人



歌手：许志安
作词：张翠华
作曲：张洪量


想着你的脸 空虚的脸
麻木的走在崩溃边缘
我需要可以 流泪的花园
灌溉这朵枯萎的诺言
最心爱的情人 却伤害我最深
为什么你背着我爱别人
女人天真的眼神 藏着冷酷的针
人生看不清却奢望永恒
哦 软弱的灵魂 已陷入太深
为什么你背着我爱别人
早已冷却的吻 藏在心中加温
爱情充满残忍 我却太认真
爱 一层层 被撕裂
想着你的脸 空虚的脸
麻木的走在崩溃边缘
我需要可以 流泪的花园
灌溉这朵枯萎的诺言
最心爱的情人 却伤害我最深
为什么你背着我爱别人
女人天真的眼神 藏着冷酷的针
人生看不清却奢望永恒
哦 软弱的灵魂 已陷入太深
为什么你背着我爱别人
早已冷却的吻 藏在心中加温
爱情充满残忍 我却太认真
我 一层层 被摧毁 被爱摧毁
我来不及 找到出口
最心爱的情人 却伤害我最深
为什么你背着我爱别人
女人天真的眼神 藏着冷酷的针
人生看不清却奢望永恒
哦 软弱的灵魂 已陷入太深
为什么你背着我爱别人
早已冷却的吻 藏在心中加温
爱情充满残忍 我却太认真
我 一层层 被摧毁
狠不下心
向黑夜
说再见
说再见

得空的一天

咳
二度失望。。
第一度，
当你告诉我你星期6才回来时，
我的心情就很低落了
因为你明明说是星期5回来的
你知道我几期待吗？

第二度
还记得你说星期6会来找我的吗？？
我很很很高兴的，
甚至高兴得掉眼泪了
但昨天，
你说星期6才回来
就代表我们不会见面了

文字是表达不到我的心情，
所以这篇部落我写得很烂
对不起

sign off！

Sorry

还记得我答应你要减10公斤在这3个月里吗？
对不起，我已经尽力了
就是没办法做到。。
很抱歉
我或许不是个完美的女生
和我走出去可能还会被人嘲笑
这感觉很不好受
不瞒你说，
到现在我还是不相信你会爱上我
我这种人，
哪里有资格被爱与爱人呢？
我本身条件就很不好
不懂怎样去逗人开心
也不会去安慰人家
外貌更不用说
每个人都希望自己的另一半是好看与美丽的
但我却。。。。。
不是你所希望的
我不介意你放弃我
真的~
我实在对自己没有信心
对不起
同时也要谢谢你
让我尝到被爱的感觉


（我知道你不会读华语，自己找翻译吧）=)

"I don't know if i'm the one who hurted you
what ever decision you've make
i'll respect it..ok
sorry .."




"maybe i just tell you too directly

unintentionally hurted you
felt guilty and worried
just hope that,don think so much
forget everything bout it
still buddy k"




- Just read back your blog, and i saw this..STILL BUDDY K -
=))

HSK IU

PICTURE OF THE DAY ♥

3 OF US ♥ ♥

AT RETARD'S HOUSE  ♥ ♥

SUBANG PEOPLE ♥ ♥

ME AND FERN ♥ ♥

ME AND KELVIN ♥ ♥

ME AND JOEY ♥ ♥

ME AND STEFFI ♥ ♥

ME, FERN AND AZWAN  ♥ ♥

ME AND ANDY ♥ ♥

ME AND KAH WHY ♥ ♥

=)

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HAPPY ENDING

14 hours

我等了你14个小时！！！
但你永远都不知道我在等你！！
你知道我的痛苦吗？？


有想过放弃，
但总是舍不得
=((

1 more day to holiday!

finished school at 2.30pm,
went to summit with melissa..
she wanted to colour her hair since last few months..
right??
( i know you are reading my blog)
hahaha..
now finally you can do it..
happy???
she picked a dark red colour..
quite suitable for her..


reached home around 6.60pm
went mydin to buy some stuff with cousin
and ate dinner..
damn full~~~~
 HOW TO DIET!!!!
cham lorrr =((



my eyes is heavy now..
sign off..
nite

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFFI LIM ♥ ♥

STUPID RETARD 'S 18TH BDAY! ♥

4 OF US

♥

ME AND FERN  ♥

FOREVER   ♥ ♥

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY STEFFI LIM

THE GREAT!!!

YES..

YOU AREE!!!